You know something?
I'm fucking happy. I like my job, I'm healthy, I have a new found love for running at midnight.
I'm smiling right now, cause I just ran 1.8K (It's hot as balls outside - that's the best I could do)
I love my friends. The ones that stuck with me, that didn't believe all the hype and hatred being spewed. My wife - I've gotten much closer with over the last 6 months, she loves me. I can tell her anything, be as crazy-weird-fucked-up and she still loves me. Never judges me. KG - Dude, I can't even tell you how much I love this guy. Platonic love tho - he's like my brother. He doesn't give a shit what is going on, hes there with a drink, a song, a hug. Whatever. I've got my BlackList club and I love every single one of them. My KM girls - Always around with SuperMario nights, or Little Caesars when we get the munchies.
I have to say, I have surrounded myself with people who truly see me, and love me - idiosyncrasies and all. It's kinda nice, knowing I can be myself.. and there is no judgement.
I dunno what it is about breakups, but when people hear that you've ended a relationship - they tend to have opinions.
"Oh, I knew it wouldn't work out"
"You're much too good for him"
"He never really loved you anyways"
And on and on. Why? Why do people feel the need to offer an opinion? I like to think that the BigGuy and I loved each other while we were together. Yes, I've realized that he loved the IDEA of me, but I do like to think that he did care for me as I cared for him.
The best parts tho - Are the people with the information... the "I-Didn't-Want-To-Say-Anything-While-You-Were-Together" people. These people come out of the woodwork. They hear that Show is single... and they have to rush over and tell her what they saw a year and a half ago. I've been told about random meetings. dinners, dates & hookups.
I don't care, people. If you really wanted to be helpful, you would've come to me 6 years ago with proof that he was cheating. You would have told me a year ago he was sleeping with my friend. Telling me now that it's over doesn't make you helpful. It makes you negative, and I don't want any part of that anymore. I don't care anymore.
We, the BigGuy and I have put that drama behind us. Well, I have. The BigGuy ignores me, avoids me completely. Pretending I don't exist, that I never happened is just his way of dealing with it I guess. I'm sad for him, that he can't look back and see the positive yet. But maybe in time he will. I just hope that his hatred and negativity doesn't spill over into his new relationship, like it did when we first got together. Hopefully he has made peace with our failures. I have.
Whatever. I'm glad that he is happy. I can honestly sit here and type and say that I am glad that he and Blondie found each other. They seem over the moon happy, and that's a really good thing. There is nothing negative about that. I hope that people ( our mutual friends that are now his friends only) see that, and understand that I see it too. Let's all just move on, ok?
Now.
More from the "Shit She Dated" Chronicles..
I love boys. You are all so stupid. There are certain girls that you don't need to play games with. That you actually need to pull your head out of your ass for a moment, smell the fucking coffee and be honest. I'm one of those girls. I tell it like it is, I mean what I say and I say what I mean. Try it, forfucksakes.
Anyways. I still hear from Clumsy. He's still confused, we still insult each other. But now, I've actually been giving him dating advice. Cause just when you think it wasn't fucked up enough...
Muscles? Oh, I love this guy. That was sarcastic. This dude, I don't even know what to tell you. We hung out, talked video games... supposed to meet up one day to play video games.. Then he tells me he is getting sick.
Now - Every girl in the world knows, boys don't turn down spending time with girls.. UNLESS it's for another girl.. So I say - Whatever dude, don't worry about it. And I haven't heard from him since. That flu is really going around.. It was a hookup that never happened. We are lying about hookups now?
I dunno. I tell the truth.
I ran into a dude I went to College with, so - I'm calling him College ( I'm nothing if not creative). He is a funny dude, always was. We have been hanging out. Friends tho - we are friends. I'm a terrible first dater, hell - I'm a terrible second and third dater too, but since we already kinda know each other - we don't need to worry about making fools of ourselves...
I saw "we" but it's "me". I make a fool of myself. Often. I have no idea what I am doing. I've been out of this dating game so long...
Did you know you aren't supposed to insult the dude while his sipping his coffee? Did you know that you should always double check what you've texted, as it could come across as accidentally racist? Do you know the power of a 6am seflie?
I do. Or... I do now. So, I guess we will see if College can put up with me...
Stay tuned.. It's only gonna get better.
I'm fucking happy. I like my job, I'm healthy, I have a new found love for running at midnight.
I'm smiling right now, cause I just ran 1.8K (It's hot as balls outside - that's the best I could do)
I love my friends. The ones that stuck with me, that didn't believe all the hype and hatred being spewed. My wife - I've gotten much closer with over the last 6 months, she loves me. I can tell her anything, be as crazy-weird-fucked-up and she still loves me. Never judges me. KG - Dude, I can't even tell you how much I love this guy. Platonic love tho - he's like my brother. He doesn't give a shit what is going on, hes there with a drink, a song, a hug. Whatever. I've got my BlackList club and I love every single one of them. My KM girls - Always around with SuperMario nights, or Little Caesars when we get the munchies.
I have to say, I have surrounded myself with people who truly see me, and love me - idiosyncrasies and all. It's kinda nice, knowing I can be myself.. and there is no judgement.
I dunno what it is about breakups, but when people hear that you've ended a relationship - they tend to have opinions.
"Oh, I knew it wouldn't work out"
"You're much too good for him"
"He never really loved you anyways"
And on and on. Why? Why do people feel the need to offer an opinion? I like to think that the BigGuy and I loved each other while we were together. Yes, I've realized that he loved the IDEA of me, but I do like to think that he did care for me as I cared for him.
The best parts tho - Are the people with the information... the "I-Didn't-Want-To-Say-Anything-While-You-Were-Together" people. These people come out of the woodwork. They hear that Show is single... and they have to rush over and tell her what they saw a year and a half ago. I've been told about random meetings. dinners, dates & hookups.
I don't care, people. If you really wanted to be helpful, you would've come to me 6 years ago with proof that he was cheating. You would have told me a year ago he was sleeping with my friend. Telling me now that it's over doesn't make you helpful. It makes you negative, and I don't want any part of that anymore. I don't care anymore.
We, the BigGuy and I have put that drama behind us. Well, I have. The BigGuy ignores me, avoids me completely. Pretending I don't exist, that I never happened is just his way of dealing with it I guess. I'm sad for him, that he can't look back and see the positive yet. But maybe in time he will. I just hope that his hatred and negativity doesn't spill over into his new relationship, like it did when we first got together. Hopefully he has made peace with our failures. I have.
Whatever. I'm glad that he is happy. I can honestly sit here and type and say that I am glad that he and Blondie found each other. They seem over the moon happy, and that's a really good thing. There is nothing negative about that. I hope that people ( our mutual friends that are now his friends only) see that, and understand that I see it too. Let's all just move on, ok?
Now.
More from the "Shit She Dated" Chronicles..
I love boys. You are all so stupid. There are certain girls that you don't need to play games with. That you actually need to pull your head out of your ass for a moment, smell the fucking coffee and be honest. I'm one of those girls. I tell it like it is, I mean what I say and I say what I mean. Try it, forfucksakes.
Anyways. I still hear from Clumsy. He's still confused, we still insult each other. But now, I've actually been giving him dating advice. Cause just when you think it wasn't fucked up enough...
Muscles? Oh, I love this guy. That was sarcastic. This dude, I don't even know what to tell you. We hung out, talked video games... supposed to meet up one day to play video games.. Then he tells me he is getting sick.
Now - Every girl in the world knows, boys don't turn down spending time with girls.. UNLESS it's for another girl.. So I say - Whatever dude, don't worry about it. And I haven't heard from him since. That flu is really going around.. It was a hookup that never happened. We are lying about hookups now?
I dunno. I tell the truth.
I ran into a dude I went to College with, so - I'm calling him College ( I'm nothing if not creative). He is a funny dude, always was. We have been hanging out. Friends tho - we are friends. I'm a terrible first dater, hell - I'm a terrible second and third dater too, but since we already kinda know each other - we don't need to worry about making fools of ourselves...
I saw "we" but it's "me". I make a fool of myself. Often. I have no idea what I am doing. I've been out of this dating game so long...
Did you know you aren't supposed to insult the dude while his sipping his coffee? Did you know that you should always double check what you've texted, as it could come across as accidentally racist? Do you know the power of a 6am seflie?
I do. Or... I do now. So, I guess we will see if College can put up with me...
Stay tuned.. It's only gonna get better.